lost.

fleeting thoughts that dress and undress

my cosmic grin

to snicker in my own dismay

Fire scorching my tongue

I wallow in my milky cloak 

Of fleeting horrors and dismay

my pieces shattered beneath the preverbal masks I paint upon myself

Darkness drips behind the mountains like drops of rain escape my sullen smile

glazed boots and thin doorways lead my forgetful tone

unwashed faces and bruised fingertips

Grace the cigarettes I’ll never finish 

due to smoke

smoke to die

Inside my thinning blame

I awake inside my minds eye

That I wished dead tomorrow

In the sweet temperament of vodka soaked spanish nighttime

My limbs hanging from my body like loaves of stale bread

But lips touch like sweet melted beeswax

And like the sun never sleeps

I burn in fiery blonde desire

fuck yourself

Sometimes you’re drunk under the moonlight

Or rather the sweet pouring rain

     And your fingertips burn from guitar strings

        The stinging soothes you though

Like wiggling a loose tooth

         Just to feel the pain

But forgetful you are

   And in your solemn tone you sleep so soft

     But dream in acquiescent thrills

       Where hands grasp your neck

Until you forget to breath

    You sink inside your creations

You can’t help but gasp for air

     And snicker in the sweet sacrifice of your loathing

   That toothy smile you wear so well

          I long to lick your teeth and dance beneath windowpanes

       Hysteria playing like records in my mind

       But I swallow my words and sell my soul

       to all the things that kiss me back so sweetly 

      To glimmer in pink sunshine and musical smiles

     And parade inside your little room of horrors

     The sun rises before you can put your pen down

   And you pray for yourself

And drift into the slow abyss of your

Dreams

    But only for the moment

Until it’s gone

       Can you kiss yourself, sweet girl?

Can you cradle your soft body and warm your smile

     Or do you you smoke cigarettes and stain your lips to stay alive?